It's too hard sometimes

[bluerain]

You arent listening! You need to find things that are positive changes for you to make!

You mentioned that you needed a place to stay. Dont you think that solving that problem would be good for you? Craigslist has lots of roommate situations on it, a really affordable option.

Do you go to church? Pray? Talk to god, he can take your anger and sadness, and never gets tired of listening. Have you ever wanted to go back to school? Or volunteer at the fire dept? These are things that will help you establish an existence seperate from your married life, it will make your wife wonder what you are up to, and it will give you something to focus on besides your situation.

This is literally tearing you apart. You have the tools to improve your situation. Its your choice whether to use them,or continue on your current path. If you dont take control of your situation, no one else is going to. All of us have been where you are, and what you are doing obviously isnt working, isnt it time to try something different?