D took a nap and so did I. X called about going with her to TorT. Got D up and ready. Took her to TorT with X and one of X's good friends and her son. We went to X's house and then followed her to her friend's house. I asked if she wanted to ride together, but she said she wanted to take her vehicle. Said we could ride with her if we wanted, but she was going to take her car. That was crazy bc all my D stuff was in my ride and to transfer over to her vehicle would be a lot.
We follow and finally arrive. As we go along TorT'n X and her friend are chatting away and I kind of hang with the little ones pulling them in a wagon. X is nice sporatically, but clearly the focus is more on them spending time together w/friend and some w/D. Def no focus on me. lol It ok bc being at this stage is a milestone.
After TorT'n we even go in X's friend's home for a few minutes and hang out some. Whew, kind of different. We finally leave for home and the X says bye.
Since I was following I was in the back and left first. When we were leaving the subdivision, I had to call X and ask which way back bc I was a bit unfamiliar with the area. She told me but ended up going the opposite direction. Guess she had other plans. At least that is how it appears.
I shouldn't worry what kind of plans she might have and should be making other plans myself. It is almost too hurtful being around someone you want to care and they do not. I can "suck it up" if I know this is the best course to make things better. I am questioning if it really is.
