this is so very, very hard.................

[motherof3]

Hi Grr. Unfortunately, welcome to the club.

I know it is painful. The first thing you need to do is take care of yourself. You will find that the situation is easier to face when you have food and sleep in your system. I know this isn't easy. I have been there. But you will find that with a full belly and some shut eye you will be able to make better decisions and face the situation head on.

Now get a copy of DB and start reading. The road you are on is a bumpy one, but we will be there for you every step of the way.