A good Halloween all in all. We hosted a party for the neighborhood before the kids went trick or treating. I played the part of W's H. Maybe that's why she was nice to me and tried to engage me in conversation at times after everyone left. I just don't feel like talking with her or being around her.
At one point tonight, I found myself with her and another guest. I walked away (pun intended) from W and the guest so I wouldn't have to be a part of the conversation. I went and talked with some of our other friends.
I am not mad or angry at her. I just feel no connection or pull to her. It's like someone said, I have touched the hot stove once before and I'm in no hurry to do it again.
I know when I was at the party tonight, I kept thinking if only these people knew what was really going on at my home. This illusion we present is so far from reality.
