The thing is Sanderika that I sense H moving closer to me with the house tour, the texting, the email, saying that I can phone him and then I hear of their day out and it really gets to me. I guess I then feel as if it's a waste of time, and I've just allowed greater cake eating. Then I feel defeated.
Way back the DB coach said not to focus on ow at all.
However, when I look at it from ow's pov she's not getting the real H either. She sees him once ot twice a week and the outings are the things that suit H.
I've got Christmas in mind and then I'll reassess. I'm not really interested in friendship, just civil dealings with him.
