OK, looking for help here. After more than a month of NC, yesterday H texted me briefly that he just paid $1000 on our credit card. No hi or anything. Just the info. So I waited to reply til this afternoon, & said "Thanks I just paid $200 on my loan. That is my student loan. Not too long after that I get a text back from him: OK. we need to get together & talk. are you available tomorrow afternoon?
So here we go again. I felt so detached (with moments of doubt, see above). I am having such a reaction, pounding heart, distracted. Fear. Why do I feel like this? Actually I do have plans for tomorrow afternoon. Can someone talk me down from this semi panic attack? Thanks for any input.
