W wants D, does it look bad if I file for D?

[brknheart]

So ive been going through hell the past 3 months. Ive gotten to the point where I have to move on, tired of the games my W is playing, tired of her hurtful comments, I just want out. She hasnt filed for D yet, but Ive been thinking about doing it myself. Does it look bad if I file for D even though I didnt want it in the beginning? This may be a stupid question, just curious since it would be on record that "I" wanted the D.