Journaling, OK I am making the decision to get myself out of this pity party today. I have to. Yes, this hurts like hell. Too freaking bad for me. It is what it is. I can't do a thing about what H does/chooses etc. My kids need me to be ok. I need me to be ok. So there is no one to give me a hug and tell me it will be ok. So what. Yes, I am very alone. It is what it is. I will have to find ways to be ok. I will be ok. It is what it is. Now I am going to put some music on and do some housework b/c I feel better in a clean house. OK *deep breath*.... life goes on.....
