I'm tired today. The kids are gone, at a wedding with my W and her family. I loved those sorts of events. We all got along so well and had fun. Now they are all there...and I am not.
I have stuff to keep me busy today. I went out last night...had fun, same plans tonight...but it doesn't change the fact that my family is not here. That, at least right now, everything appears to be headed toward divorce.
I was going to go over my divorce papers this weekend. When I came home Wed, the papers were gone. I emailed my W looking for them. She never replied, so I called her Thursday night. I asked her for them and she was quiet. She said "I thought I was filing alone now". I told her that I never said that, but even if she did, I would need those papers. She got upset and said that there are completly differnt papers if she files on her own. So, I said "okay, I'd like to have them, because I thought we were still filing together."
Then she said something that still confuses me. "I threw them out". What? Of course, I said nothing, I think I said "OKay, I think I have copies someplace. And I left it go.
Why would she throw out my paperwork? Maybe out of anger?
There are so many confussing things going on right now that I don't know what to think.
On top of all of this, I have been the model for GALing. I am having fun. I had a friend I haven't seen in 10 years over the other night. I had a 23 year old hit on me...this one has disaster written all over it. I go out, do fun things, charity, hanging out with friends, etc...
Yet, today, I feel empty. I don't like feeling empty.
