I keep on wondering why my W doesn't want me. Your H sounds a lot like me. I'd like to think I'm not so bad, but the dynamic is so similar it's scary.

I keep pitying myself and expecting others to feel so sorry for me. I'm so angry w/ my W, but what choice did she have?

Maybe there's a way to get your H to realize what's going on w/out kicking him out. But I doubt it. I wish I weren't saying that, because I still want to believe my M can be saved.

One piece of advice: when you cut the string, really cut it. Mean it when you tell him to get out. It can't be a test. He'll yowl at your back door like a stray cat but be strong and ignore him.

Somewhere inside of your H is a good and decent man. But being human he will look for the easiest path to comfort. Right now that is you. And it's not your job to turn him into a man. It's his and you shouldn't accept being married to a boy.


~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)