Anyway, things have cooled down considerably with the OW however really picking up steam with the exgf from HS...
I sat there looking at all the texts and calls and felt like I had been slapped straight back to 8 months ago...
1st thought - Why aren't we good enough for him? (I know in my head it isn't about us, but my heart says otherwise)...
2nd thought - I can't do this again with a new OW...
I don't have the strength within me...
3rd thought - I wonder, looking back if he ever really loved me or just the idea of marriage at the time...
I'm sorry, Serenity. Don't know what words I can say...
Originally Posted By: Serenity13
I am drained with just the ex from middle school and I am a little upset that I still can't find the anger stage -
The stage that would probably help me the most is the one that is most elusive to me...
Not to worry: it will find you, eventually. It's just now beginning to catch up to me. Last week, my family doctor said to me "So tell me: when are you going to get angry?" Me: "What?" Her: "You've cycled through all the stages except one: when are you going to get angry ? At her? About this?" And I've finally been letting myself acknowledge and feel the very real anger that is due. Overdue.
So:Gggrrrrr.... And one for you: Gggrrrr....r
Be good to yourself. You deserve it.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
