Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

I have to say when I hear those statements-"I'm done" or "I can't do this anymore" my heart drops to the pit of my stomach and I wait for the "I want a divorce" to be next. Thats how I feel. How I act is that I usually turn away(so I don't accidentally show how I feel) and take a deep breathe and don't react or say anything...I let H keep talking.

I thought that was doing OK considering how I really feel about those 'trigger' statements.

Tonight H and I were alone..We had a little bit of not-so-tasty wine, ML and now H is sleeping. I survived today. H has made some plans to workout with a friend and have lunch with a buddy tomorrow while I'll work out on my own and then shuttle kids around a bit. I plan to do a bit of shopping for myself since the dress code at work has gotten more professional as of Monday

Its sad, but perhaps practical at this point, that sometimes I just want to make it through the day without a major blowout. Some days things roll off H's back and he doesn't react negatively and the next day the same thing is a major problem. Its hard living with that unpredictability.

Thanks for listening/reading. Thanks for the support Grace and Peace.