Still trying to detach I did not attempt contact with X today about Halloween options or me getting my D. It has been pouring down raining all day long and continued when I went to pick up D. X's mom asked if I would come in and wait on X till she made it home bc she got tied up in traffic. I agreed.
As previously mentioned I get very uncomfortable when they let me in the house bc they usually do not. So I go in, my D is showing me all her toys and having a blast with her Dad in there. I wait about 15 minutes and the X arrives. X asks me about Halloween and what I wanted to do. I just calmly said whatever.
She tells me she has a run in the morning and will call me afterwards and then we can hang for a few hours and then she has a hair appointment. Wow..
It just makes me feel like she does not have a priority on wanting to spend time even with her D. She is all about herself. She wants to run, get her hair done and do what is best for her. I feel like I try to spend as much time with my D as I can and even give up doing a lot of things just to spend time with her. It really makes me sad..
I wanted to call the X and talk, but I guess it is not the best thing to do, so I resisted and text other friends. I really want a significant other at this stage while hanging with my D. The X does not want to be it, but I don't really want other women around daughter too soon. I don't have much time outside of having my D. What a quandry... What to do? What to do?
