I told him about d13 crying, being sad and missing him. I DID IT FOR HER!! NOT for him. He does NOT deserve HER or anything in relation to their lives. BUT THEY LOVE him so I WILL do what is right.. BUT it makes me angry!!!
I am angry that he gets to be with them at Christmas. NOT sad.. ANGRY. HE DOESNT DESERVE to laugh with them or spend special time with them. BUT THEY DO.. They deserve to have him in thier lives the way that they want him.
He is a jerk who doesn't deserve love. They are his kids who deserve a "father" and a dad.
This part of all of it stinks!!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
Yes, you are correct. He is not even close to what your kids deserve. They want any small piece of him they can get, damaged or not.
Holidays are very rough. Trust in your God, that he will turn things around for you and your children. Anticipate this nightmare ending. This can't go on forever Cagz, they can't keep this pace up forever. This small bit of knowledge gives me hope.
It is so unfair that our children suffer. It is not right, but as the saying goes, life is not fair. We have to teach our children how to handle these dark seasons.
You are an amazing and strong woman.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
hate days when I miss x today is one of those days not sad - just miss him
d13 had an overnight last night, one tonight and then off this weekend with x.... i am sure that is where the "missin" and lonely feeling is coming from
oh well - nothing i can do about it...
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
still missing x. . . he picked up d13 - and we talked - it is wierd - we talk like we are friends... like we weren't married - but we have known each other for a long time. . . like we know the moves and teh thoughts.. but our friends..
why doesn't he see ME ?? Why??
i miss him. i miss my friend. i still find him attractive.
why am i not moving on? why am i holding on to something does not exsist?
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
some days are like that we see them they look attractive the conversation runs well we still love them it is normal in many ways you have moved on you have worked on yourself changed ansd grown we never know the final outcome maybe there will always be some hope you probably have your own answer to those last 2 questions you posted what do you think? peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
i guess i just keep thinking he is going to wake up from all of this and get his head out of his butt... and then finally we will be a family again.
then my brain says .. duh stupid you know better.
i have dated some guys but i am truthfully not attracted to anyone.. and i guess some days i look at my life and don't see how i would ever really find a connection with someone again.
i am moving forward- doing my own life---- just miss the benefits of a partner.. good bad and otherwise.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Your right Cagz, He probably does not care about anyone but himself right now. You are just an afterthought. That is why right now you have to make him an afterthought. He does not deserve you or any energy you put into him. All your thoughts and energy needs to be put on you and the kids. Love is reciprocal. He is not capable of love.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
Hi C I think they still care about us but just from my experience with my xh I see him in so much distress he cant focus on anything but himself he cant even be there for his kids we have to go on have faith sent positive thoughts to x and keep going this was never about us--if it were they would be happy now Peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
