I have been cleaning out my emails lately and I have emails from 2008 between my husband and myself and honestly reading them now...it makes me cringe how needy I was..how I had no self respect and how I counted on his to make my world happy..I still feel a little bit of that but I go through the days now and no longer need to talk to him or email him..it is odd...it is SO freeing...not to need someone..to know you can do things on your own..I think this is something I have always known but I was so afraid of losing him..now if he walks out the door I would be scared and nervous but I would handle it with respect and class! I have grown SO much thanks to this site...really! I have a long way to go and if I could let go of OW( she antagonizes the He** out of me on purpose at work..she knows how to push my buttons because we were best friends) it would be so much better for me..I would continue to be less and less afraid.
