So far things are going alright. I'm trying my best to do my own thing. My W's doesn't have anymore feelings towards me. As a way to protect myself from getting too close, I've been telling myself I hate her.
In the morning I tell myself I hate her. If she goes out and comes back whenever, I tell myself I hate her. This self talk does not help me feel good about myself. I don't think I'm the type of person that can walk around hating someone; especially my wife.
That is not a healthy way to live. It is natural to feel that way sometimes, but to feel that way all the time is harmful to you. You need to find a way to release those feelings.
Kevin
Me 36, W 37 M: 08/02/97 D13, D9 1st Bomb 02/08 Reconciled 04/08 2nd Bomb: 09/08 W filed for D 02/04/09 Separated 03/09 D dismissed 06/09/09 Still separated...
