Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

[Jack_Three_Beans]

Kissak,

: )

I know how you feel.

What scares me is that I could care less either way. Im not sure if thats good or bad.

Im not really sure what I want to do. Instead being excited about it all, Im wondering if its really what I want after all this time.

It's like you almost don't want to invest into the emotions required. That's how it was for me. Along with a few other very important reasons.

But I wouldn't be who I am if I didn't give her that last chance.
To do everything for promise I had made and to my family which, were me and my children at the time.

I actually wanted her to fail, and I was expecting her to.
But she didn't. I am glad for that now, but at the time...I was actually pi$$ed.

Has he changed? Has he worked on himself any?

I'll admit to a certain ammount of not knowing your whole story. : ) Sorry. That being said, unless he was abusive...verbally or physically, you cannot really expect them to come out of MLC a better person. They come out the same person they were BEFORE the MLC. Not the person who was MLC but the faulty person they were before, just 'fixed' if you will in what lead them to MLC. ...and fragile. Hell, they know they were broken and are.

As a growing person you are ahead of them, it is up to you to determine if you wait up for them...but do not stop growing yourself.

Meaning I wouldnt fall apart like in the past. I think I would tell him then that it was over.

Im thinking if it gets to what ever point it gets to this time that I will say "last chance". Because I know I will be ok and CAN make it on my own!!

Because of this, what you wrote, you will be fine. No matter what choice you made, you will be ok.
Even now, years later, if my wife calle dme right now and said, "I need to leave." I'd reply, "OK, lets do this."
First because, I will not go through this again for her, everyone gets one, if they need it."
Second, because I am OK.
Third, my happiness depends on me, and no one else.

You want to make the right choice.

NO ONE should tell you what that right choice is.
A warning and a question:

Make no decision you will later regret or question.

Isn't this what you came here seeking?

: )

You're golden Kissak.