I had a chat to my chairman today and it was really helpful as he could see something was up with me. He is a real 'tell it like it is kind of guy'. He told me I concern myself too much with why h does the things that he does, stop waiting for him to realise that his girlfriend is 'dog ugly and thick as two short planks' (his words smile ), stop worrying him and concentrate on the only person that matters - me.

He is right and it was good to hear it from a clear, non emotional, lay it on the line kind of way instead of having to work all this out by myself. My head gets too clouded with emotions.

So, I sent the final details to the solicitor and sent the court fees off so the divorce should be filed on Monday. I didn't do this because my chairman told me to but because I know that I need to get strong, be who I am and concentrate on me. I am sure this is still going to be a rollercoaster at times but I wasn't liking the person that I saw in the mirror, I had no respect for her. Now at least I can respect myself and know deep down in my heart that I did everything I could to save my marriage and that I deserve better.

M- May 2006
D - Aug 2010
Now travelling the world