No babysitter. We'll probably do an early dinner or something before she goes and I'll hang out. I'll let her do her thing without me there and wish her luck.
I'm acting distant I think because I'm conflicted/confused with how much space I should give her. I also think that I'm a little hung up on the EA I suspected her of having and that definitely has shown through. I need to work on that. I feel like we are both giving eachother mixed signals so it makes it hard to read.
She's so stubborn and will generally never admit to being wrong about anything. I'm a little stubborn too. That is one thing I don't like. She also shuts down easily if a conversation isn't going smoothly. It makes it difficult to talk through anything. I think any other dislikes stem from the above.
She just called me and we chatted a bit. She ran 8 miles and I said I was jealous and that I was impressed with her speediness. Asked if her quad felt better because it was hurting before. Asked about a couple of house maintenance things. Also asked if I should bring something home for dinner but she said she would make something. I'm calling her when I leave to let her know what time I'll be home...
That's it. Not much of an update.
Steve, not sure if my answers are too vague. I just have an uneasy feeling around her now. Like I don't know how to act and I don't want to pursue her affection and get shot down I guess. She said I have these short answers and I don't seem like I want to talk to her so she doesn't get it...I guess I am just having a hard time figuring out what she really needs/wants me to do.
Me: 30 W: 29 D: 20 months M: 5 years T: 6.5 years ILYBNILWY and want to separate: 10/5/2009
