Yesterday was a much better day, despite my eyes hurting and burning from all the crying the night before. I had a "snow" day, which was perfect as I really didn't feel like being around anyone anyway.
I felt more positive and did some searches on some audio books to do some work on myself. I have so much anger inside of me, from all the hurt, that I really need to learn how to deal with that. Otherwise I find it coming out when I least expect it to.
Short and to the point texts to my H yesterday just about simple things. Nothing else. So badly wanted to call him or talk to him, but I didn't.
I just sent him an email though and said we needed some boundaries. He can't be coming over here whenever he wants to do laundry or get things, so I told him when times I would be gone that he could come over.
I also told him that I understand about what he is going through with his self worth/love and that I was once there too and until he works through those issues, he will never be able to truly love anyone else. I suggested going to church counselor or someone to get these issues worked on, as I plan to do as well.
Now I just plan to focus on myself, moving forward, staying positive and hopefully pulling myself out of this crappy mood I have been in!
