You are not a fool, she is the fool who chose to ruin the family instead of trying to fix it. It was easier to take a different route instead of sticking through it with you and maybe letting herself go and be open for new things.
17 years is a long time, I hear you on that. Although you have gotten something wonderful out of it (your boys) its like I wasted all that time on someone who would just assume to throw it away when things got bad.
Its depressing, and sad. But I know that there are many people out there who have the same views as you do (you just have to find them) and you have to believe that you will be happy again with someone whom you can trust and live the rest of your life with.
The fear of the unknown is the worst.
Im not much of a bar person either, but if H was to ask me to go out for a bit, I would go, just to get out and be alone.
What's going on for tomorrow??
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
