Ohh guys, thanks. The males visited me last night... Thanks Ian, Rob, Hi Jack!!
Our discussion the night before, must have bothered him a lot. He kept quiet yesterday.Which is fine. This is not an easy ride. And yes Ian, I am in a position to call it off and be OK. Not great, not fine, but OK. I am not going to die. There are a lot of things out there that make me happy. My kids and I will be OK.
It is frustrating that we cant seem to communicate in an effective way. Confusion, hurt, guilt, hesitation, mistrust all get in the way adn as long as we dont communicate, the above barriers will remain. I need to figure out how to approach this. If he cant turn his guilt to expression of positive feelings, we are not going anywhere. And if I dont stop obssessing about the A, we dont stand a chance. We'll see... K
