As I sit here reading your words with tears in my eyes, I am truly (I know you all are probably shocked LOL) at a loss trying to respond to your kind words...
(I didn't know there was a notify button BTW thanks for the tip)
I could use your words to me the other day stating "You never really know if you are making a difference"...
I feel for the new ones here as well as the ones I have gotten to know who came around the same time I did, I feel for the ones who have been here awhile with not many changes as well as the ones who have had changes yet they aren't the changes that were expected.
I learned early on from a wise soul (Yes you Puppy) - Expect nothing...
All I expect is to be a little bit stronger each day I wake up and each new day I face, puts a tiny bit of my soul back in place...That is what I am trying to do here as well...
You will never know how much your above post means to me Puppy and from the bottom of my heart, I thank you.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
That "concern for others, first" Serenity is what will keep you strong and okay thru all of this. The God I believe in protects people like you, and helps them.
Puppy
I too believe this. You have helped me so much with your insight and encouragement. I always look forward to your posts and you are always in my prayers.
Yes, Seren, you were among the first to help me as a newbie. You're posts have meant alot to me and is encouraging me to help others whenever I can. Looking forward to your future posts and God bless.
Serenity, Hi, I'm back after a good coupla days off. Just caught up on everyone and sought you out only to find that I'd missed Serenity13 Appreciation Day.
Originally Posted By: Serenity13
Awww - You guys are so kind...
So, I belatedly chime in and agree with one and all and add that to me you have been a kind, thoughtful, STRONG women of faith who I have come to rely on for mutual support, fellowship, and fun! Would love to meetcha some day.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
As I stated on your thread - I am glad you are back...
I was so happy to see you lost your rope - Wanna show me how you did that?
I thank you very much for your kind words and as I said to Puppy it surprises me since of course I don't think I am making any kind of difference to anyone here since we are all pretty much in the same boat...
I would love to meet you in real life as well, I have come to rely on your responses to me as well and I always look forward to your posts...We never know what the Lord has in store for any of us
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
Today I did something I haven't done in awhile, I checked the cell bill...
I should be slapped everytime that thought crosses my mind...
Anyway, things have cooled down considerably with the OW however really picking up steam with the exgf from HS...
I sat there looking at all the texts and calls and felt like I had been slapped straight back to 8 months ago...
1st thought - Why aren't we good enough for him? (I know in my head it isn't about us, but my heart says otherwise)...
2nd thought - I can't do this again with a new OW...
I don't have the strength within me...
3rd thought - I wonder, looking back if he ever really loved me or just the idea of marriage at the time...
I can look back at certain instances that should have been a warning bell going off however I was to naive to notice it...
The exgf from HS has been in our marriage every few years starting from the day we got engaged...
In hindsight, he knew how I felt about her yet still continued to find a way to contact her (he says she contacted him everytime however I no longer believe that) every few years, carry on with her (probably emotionally), lie his POS ass off to me then when his guilt kicked in would admit it, beg for forgiveness, swear it would never happen again and we would be good for a few years - Rinse & Repeat...
I am drained with just the ex from middle school and I am a little upset that I still can't find the anger stage - The stage that would probably help me the most is the one that is most elusive to me...
Ok done venting - No 2x4's needed because I damn sure know better by now then to even bother looking...
Nothing like asking for trouble
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
Awww - You guys are so kind...
