It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

Last friday I tried to kill myself. Badly. I texted my wife when I thought it was too late but apparently it wasn't and I'm here to tell about it.

I was held for almost a week getting a lot of counseling and did a lot of work on myself. In a lot of ways it was a positive thing. My W was very hurt but helped out a lot throughout.

The upshot is that I'm fine and very ashamed but I'm working toward being a stronger person, a stronger man and a stronger father. I also gained some much needed perspective and got in touch with important resources.

I wouldn't recommend this course to anyone but it has sped up my growth tremendously.

I do humbly apologize to those here who have been trying to help me. I feel I've let many of you down by doing this.

I don't know how to gauge this in terms of helping a reconciliation but I think it has hurt my chances somewhat... I do however have a clearer view of how to proceed from here.