On Tuesday I went out with a budy and had a few drinks. Well got home , chatted up a friend, called in sick for work and just got depressed at my actions.
So I sat there and thought all day about how I had back-pedalled and there I was down in the dumps and I realized that I was depressed by my own actions. I had caused a few problems. Slacked off at work.
Well first thing I did was contact my friend and say that I am very sorry for chatting you up last night. It was not my intent. ( She did not even notice ... ) I really felt horrible about that. She just went through a break up as well. And I had given her all my self help books and we were talking about boundaries... Went into work today and took my lumps for my screw up. I hope it was the 2x4 and kick in the ass so I can get back into work. I have been going through the motions... Its catching up. So I have got to GAL work. One of my co-workers who knows what is going on just gave it to me. I was real glad he did. I told him that I need to man up to work. Take my responsibliites back from everyone else.
As for the self funk. I ran it out of my system today after work. After accepting my screwups this week.
I think I did a little too much of the GAL last week. And forgot to spend some time alone relaxing. So I ran myself down. Peaked with the emotions. And forgot some of my personal goals. But wow what a down emotion it was. Booze and this stuff does not mix at all....
Well back on track. One step back... Two steps forward.
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... ) I really felt horrible about that. She just went through a break up as well. And I had given her all my self help books and we were talking about boundaries... 