Signed, Sealed, Delivered, I'm not Yours...

[figgeroni]

those that are lost shall be found

in marriage, i lost myself
in divorce I found me

stupid and silly and there had to be an easier way

but

i am a better mother
friend
teacher
writer
human
because of what I went through

the people that stayed with me through it all have become deeper friends
the people I met because of it have become my support

the person I became is better than i knew how to be

you certainly don't have to go through a divorce to have these changes occur
but we do have to change
the relationship has to change
be reborn

through fire we come out clean

and
you
muffin
while not pure as the driven snow
are clean

[sofaraway]

I am good with clean, but your right...pure would not work

Nope, you dont have to go through a divorce to get here, but it certainly does put a hitch in your getalong........

[*KS*Chick*]

ROFLOL - pure eh.....

I am so proud of that lil Tawny muffin - wonder where she gets her strength

[BobbiJo]

Yay Tawny! She sounds like such a strong, amazing girl, kinda like her dad (except for the girl part... )

Glad you are feeling free of the weight. I think that is a pretty major point a lot of left-behinds don't grasp early on. The pain we have to work through is damn-near unbearable, but we come out the other side with time and we know who we are and can be proud of that.

Those who chose to walk/run on the other hand may have a temporary high from their new sex buddy or sense of 'freedom', but their pain comes along too, and the weight I believe stays with them much longer than it does us...

Take care Ian. Thanks for a few of those chats when I needed them.

[sofaraway]

So i went to Ross' xmas band concert at his school tonight. Carrie was there and with OM. It just made me sick to my stomach. I don't really ever think I will be ok with seeing them together. Is it bitterness, no, I think it is morality. Maybe I am wrong, not sure.... just know I am simply not in the mood to see the two of them together and luckily snuck out early with my son to avoid any contact. I dont think that would have been good......


Ian

[Reincarnated]

((((((Ian))))) If it helps, it's kind of gross to most of us. And Carrie has made some even more alien choices than most.

Glad that you were able to get out - how was the concert, otherwise? Are the kids excited about XMas?

[mindfull]

Ian, I don't even know you,l and it pisses ME off!

Gosh, WHY was it necessary to bring him to your kids' holiday event?

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[sofaraway]

Hey Donna, the concert was great. My boy is a natural and plays a mean Clarinet.

As far as amped up about Christmas, nope. It has been a tough year financially and I think my kids are not as excited because they know it will not be a normal xmas in our house.... sad, but we will build on it.


Ian

[Reincarnated]

Oh, hon, there are TONS of things that you can all do that don't cost too much, or anything!
Give a charge to your kids to come up with some new "traditions" - drive around and look at the lights, make marshmellow and coconut snowmen, bake cookies, etc...

You also have the Menorrah to break out, no? (Sorry if I killed that spelling)

[figgeroni]

MUFFIN!!!!!
(that is me yelling in excitement and waving my arms)

I have missed you

and

If I were there I would have decked her

maybe not politically correct
but heart correct for sure

sometimes I get to be selfish

or I would have made her cry with my stare

either way

you would have told me to knock it off because you are a better person than me

(raspberries)

and

all our Christmas's are most likely going to be lean
financial crap sucks my assests

but you can make stuff
like cookies
and
send them to me!!!!

I won't even pack your stuff in cotton balls
(ok...maybe just a few)