He finally came on MSN, was pickled although he said he'd only had two glasses, I was a bit miffed and said I couldnt do this anymore I didnt want a MSN relationship, and he replied words to the effect thats all he could do right now, I said I missed his voice and he moaned I never phoned him! I was under the impression that I couldnt because of the no signal, so I phoned him and he seemed peeved I didnt even try! Teddy boy was definitely present but mostly cos I think he was very tired, although said that now wasnt a good time to talk about anything serious, so I left it but there wasnt much else to say, I said I'd give him some space as I'd obviously over faced him space wise and he said "no we can still chat online"
I just dont know what to do, when we are together its fun, the sex is great, we laugh and have a nice time, and now he's gone back he seems depressed and lonely but doesnt want to come back and I lost it a bit tonight and said Im done and he said if thats what you want, so hes not prepared to fight for us at all yet!
Pretty sad and upset tonight! Expectations really had got the better of me, how do I back off without him thinking Im sulking, or keep up contact without it seemingly pursuing, Im just so confused!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
