The waiting is over

[ACJ]

Thanks everyone.

I totally lost it yesterday. S17 decided he would go to the wedding after all. I am so disappointed in him. I really thought he would do the right thing this time. He wouldn't admit but he has clearly had pressure put on him to go to the wedding. As far as I know he went.

So I sobbed all night last night. I did go into work but only because I was covering for someone else's annual leave and it was a job that could not go undone. I came home again as soon as that was finished. I slept most of the afternoon and I do feel better for it but I can't tell you how down I feel. It's almost like being back at the very start of all this c**p.

My mother phoned this evening. She cannot understand why after 4yrs and a D I am still affected by this. I told her it will never completely go away. You don't spend 23yrs of your life with someone and then just forget about them.

Virginia I'm going to look you up now