Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

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OK...evidently my H took to heart our little conversation a couple of weeks back.

I remember now what was said....we were talking about him working shift work and all. Him wanting me to help with his schedule and kids when he had them....I of course said no problem...but occasionally I like to be a little sarcastic...I told him at the time "you know, if you lived here this would be easier".

Well, we took the kids to the fair the other night. We always try to at least do those kinda things together with the kids still. He mentioned while they were on a ride that he had his health insurance come up for review the day before and he wanted me to know that he hadnt taken me off. He said he didnt want to leave me with no Insurance. Then he goes on to say that he really was thinking about what I had said....about moving home.

We talked alot when the kids were on rides about somethings and him talking to his therapist about it and all.

Hmmmm, not sure what to make of this. It has been quite sometime since his last request of moving home. I believe it was last December that we talked about it all.

Im not really sure what I want to do. Instead being excited about it all, Im wondering if its really what I want after all this time.

Has he changed? Has he worked on himself any? Im very sure if he changes his mind AGAIN, I would be VERY OK with it! Meaning I wouldnt fall apart like in the past. I think I would tell him then that it was over.

Im thinking if it gets to what ever point it gets to this time that I will say "last chance". Because I know I will be ok and CAN make it on my own!!

Lots to be considered and talked about. I told him after talking a little about it the other night that we could talk more later...that I wanted to enjoy the kids and the fair.

Pray that I make the right decisions.