I agree. Well put Stuck. Kev this is the same crap that you were saying a year ago. We have all spent countless hours giving you advice which you still agrue against to this day.
Just let go and move on. Continue to become the best Kevin you can be. Stop talking about it and SHOW IT with your ACTIONS NOT WORDS PERIOD.
You still NEED to DEAL with your ADDICTIVE PERSONALITY before any HEALING can begin.