As an admited Controlling Abusive husband. I would hold onto your letter and work on fixing yourself. Right now you may not be in the best position to do everything you wrote on a consistent bases. Your W will call you on this and it will remind her of all the other times you promised to change and didn't. She may have heard this all before. All you are asking for is her to call you on everytime you revert back to the controlling, manipulative and verbally abusive behavior you've shown her. The letter is like putting a magnifying glass in your wife's hand to see you through. You need time to heal and as she see's you healing only then she will start healing and maybe you will have a chance with her down the road. If not your kids will still have the best dad in the world.
I admire your strength to admit here what you've done to your family and yourself.
How are you getting help to change your past behaviors? You can send me a message if you would like to talk. Good Luck and God Bless.
H:37 W:34 D11,S8,S6 Together 19 years M:10 Bomb:4/09
