Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Hi Grace,
I realize I have it pretty good overall. I realize I may seem like a whiner right now. In general-I'm not. I only vent here b/c I really don't have any other place to.

Behind all of this is the concern(not so much worry anymore) that at some point H will get fed up with how he's feeling and blame me/our relationship and leave..or ask me to leave(which I won't). The cycling up and down seems faster.

There are definite positive steps(H is going to an all day communication refresher course on 11/4) and little steps back (H being more solitary-saying he always seems to be alone, despite the fact that I encourage and ask him to join me on various errands/walks)..more anger.

I know its hard doing the single mom thing. I agree, I think the stress at home is the difference and that is what I think is wearing on me and the girls a bit.