It was great last night and this morning. H stayed over and we had a fun morning with S.
Then I ruined it. I got hit on the side of my car last night WHILE I WAS PARKED. Go figure. H saw it this morning, I hadn't noticed it last night. H got very mad at me for not noticing and told me how scary it is that I don't notice things that big - I told him I had come out of my support group and was emotional and tired and didn't notice it. H just saw me as completely not paying attention and let in to me about it. H also doesn't believe me and thinks I hit something and was lying about it.
This has been a dynamic in our R - a) that I don't pay enough attention to things ( library books returned late, arriving places late, paying bills late, etc) and b) that i've lied before to avoid his anger.
So I'm staying more calm than usual - I walked away from the discussion. But I'm afraid now he feels justified again that I'm not worth coming back to because "I haven't changed."
