Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I spent last night at home with W and S. I stopped at the store and picked up come cider and donuts for dessert after dinner. (ended up breaking into them before dinner). I had fun spending time with S. We made a project and worked on his homework together.

W called me a couple of times yesterday. She came up with reasons, but essentially just to tell me about her day and ask about mine. She followed me upstairs after I got home from work just to ask for a hug too.

I'm just not feeling it right now though.

Of course, I hugged her back, and was pleasant on the phone when she called. I took the dog for a long walk after S went to bed. W waited up for me to return and was asleep on the couch when we got back.

I am going back to work on my G'ma's house tonight. I'm enjoying myself more over there lately.

I'm feeling very detached, but maintain the fact that love is a choice, not a feeling. I am receptive to her as I don't want to turn her away, but I'm definitely different over the past couple of weeks.