I know! I agree. However, I can say that whatever it is, I know it will be tough, but I have already made plans for how to deal with it.
We go next Wed. night at 7:00pm. My C is a great guy and we have that last appt of the day because he will stay as late as he needs. One time he talked with me until 11:30pm.
However, that is the day I leave the house and she comes home. So, you know what? I have called 3 friends, talked about this and they all feel pretty much the same, you don't have to be there...but since I am going to be there (I agreed) two of them are waiting for my call. When I am done, 8:00 or 11:00, we're going out. I even told my boss (who's an awesome guy) and he said I should just plan on coming in late :-)
Rather then worry about what is going to be said, what the "things he doesn't realize" are, I will be there to hear it and then know I have at least a few people willing to hang out and do whatever. probably talk about the session initially, but then maybe it will be time for a few tequilla shots or maybe some Karaoke. Eitherway, I will have support with me and she will be the one going home to be super-parent on her own.
A month ago, I would have prefered to be the super-parent, at least I would have my kids with me...now I prefer to be on my own so I can go out...maybe my smitten admirer will be out (but I will be good, I even wear my ring so there is no doubt).
While I am still very sad, very much wanting to fix this; I'm not dreading things like I used to. Time goes so much faster when you have something to do besides feeling sorry for yourself.
My saying is still proving true. Patience is easy when you have something to do in the meanwhile.
As for the session with the C next week, we talked about that today. he said the same things you did, Sandi. He said the best thing I can do is sit there and just listen. He said that if he felt I needed to say something, he would ask me a question. let her lay out everything and see what she has to say.
That's fine by me. A week from today I may know more than I want to, I might have more hope, or it might all be gone...any way it goes, I'll have a good end of the day with friends.
