I feel physically ill. Things have only seemed to have gotten worse. DH has issues..mostly his self worth and until he can love himself, he won't be able to love anybody else..this I know cuz I was there once too.
So now he has given up ...says the time apart makes him realize he just wants to be alone. There is no one else, I believe that, I think its just himself.
This just plain sucks..I really thought we could have worked things out. Now I am just angry...angry for him wasting the last 5 years, which was when this whole crap began. If we would have ended it back then, I could have moved on and been with someone else by now, happily married, having kids..which I have always wanted.
Now I am scared..its been so long...we have been together about 10 year and I don't know how to move on.
I KNOW I am strong enough and can do this..but its so hard..it hurts so bad.
One thing though..when I asked him if we were finally done, I got no response..just silence. Why can't he say it?
Then I threw my wedding ring and other ring he gave me on our wedding night into his bag and he got pissed and left. Why does HE have reason to be pissed? Does he think I was going to be happy about this?
I woke up this morning feeling positive and made the decision to make my marriage work and this is what happened?
what do I do now? Should I leave all the divorce stuff up to him or just do it myself and be done?
Im so mentally exhausted..I dont know how much more I can handle...
