trying hard to figure things out

[twistfigure]

We actually spent 15 minutes together when I picked up the papers and 30 mins together when I dropped them back off to him. Things were pleasant. Life is def workign out better for me than him. He's living in a tiny studio flat that barely holds his stuff and he looks like hell. He asked me lots of questions making sure things are okay with the new house and work. Says he isn't ready to totally end things yet and deep down he still loves me but of course he won't say it. Says he doesn't want to give me false hope but who knows what will happen in the future. The whole time I'm thinking WTF???? I feel super guilty because I'm moving on and doing so well but at the same time I worry that everything I am doing is wrong and pushing him farther away. Buying a house is such a huge deal and he seems upset but I tried to reassure him that even though it is a big deal buying a house isn't perminate. It's like he wants space still but wants me to wait on him. GRRRRR!