Am I at this stage?

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Well. An okay day. Nothing to get excited about that's for sure. I went to my counseling session this morning while H watched the boys. When I got back he was excited that I was about 15 minutes early so he wasn't going to be late for hockey. But then he ended up procrastinating and didn't leave for half an hour! I expected him to walk out the door as soon as I walked in. Its almost like he enjoyed being there with me. We hung out in the living room and had some basic every day conversation. He kept commenting "well i should go to hockey". Like a few times. He is never late for hockey, but was definitely late today. And that's all I have heard from him. He was supposed to originally meet me at our sons preschool to take pics of his Halloween party but my husband works shift work and so I told him not to worry about it cause he is on Nights tonight and need to catch some sleep this afternoon. So thats the last I talked to him.

Things are different now. 2, 3 weeks ago we would drop off and pick up and discuss future drop off and pick ups in that time. Now when we do it he doesn't even bring up the next time he'll see the boys. I don't know if its because we are slowly getting into a routine or if its because we are communicating more?? 2,3 weeks ago, we only talked through texting. We arranged everything through text. But now he is calling. Like last night. It was basically only to discuss today's events. We could have done it through text like we have been, but he wanted to do it through conversation. I try to take it like a good sign.

Now for my question of the day. I had a meeting with my MC today and he thinks I need to sit down and talk to H about where he is at. He thinks that after friday's occurences, and wanting to spend time with me sunday, and eating here, and everything else, that my H is thinking differently than he did 2 weeks ago. Now I'm scared too! I don't want to pressure him! I feel like since I quit bringing up "relationship" stuff, he has made the turn around. MC things that that my biggest problem is the fear in me. The fear and the eggshell walk I do daily around H. He believes that if I have any chance of rebuilding my marriage I need to get over my fear of H's reactions, and answers. He thinks that I need to ask him where he is at and own up to it, and be okay with the answer good or bad. But I personally don't think H is ready to give me an answer yet. Although I do agree that its almost been a week since the breakthrough and good things have happened since. We are getting along great. He is enjoying being around me, he has missed me which HE stated, why hasn't he said anything. Why hasn't he given me anything? I hate being in limbo. So I do agree a little. But what do you think?