Hi Cat,TF Well the accident certainly shifted a lot of stuff in my life. Its taken the heat of my DBing. Just too shocked to care about it really.Haven`t cried yet. Still processing accident stuff both in my head and with paperwork, friends and family calling etc.Busy time.
I bailed out too for a couple of days, taking the kids to my sister`s place. Just for a breather.
But before I left, H came out to the car wish me well. Said he`s hate if anything happened to me. He was almost in tears and certainly look very pained. It was the first softness I`ve seen in him in such a long time. I was stunned. But hugged him and said 'Thanks, sweetheart, that was such a lovely thing to say'
I texted to let him know I arrived but nothing back. Since I returned yesterday, his tone has been softer, there`s been eye contact, almost normality.
But he rang DS14 this pm. Got him to hand the phone to me and said he was away for two nights on a training course. Yeah, I do believe him-there are changes afoot in his workplace. I thanked him for letting me know. Chit chat re the kids. that was it.
I don`t know if he`s softening for amicable separation. Or maybe having second thoughts about ditching the relationship.
And I hate being strung up on hope for the latter again.
Keepin busy though. Let him know I`d friends in this evening. And meeting another friend tomorrow pm.
He hasn`t offered to help with the practicalities of the accident. But that`s going ok for me. The other party in the accident has minor injuries and is not pressing charges and is only asking to be compensated for her car.
You can`t imagine what a relief that is to me-particularly the lack of significant injury.
I think I`m so overwhelmed by all this accident stuff I just can`t take a whole lot in though.
