I keep forgetting that part of it and turn it around onto me. I better put that on a piece of paper and keep it with me for a while until it really sinks in. I can't keep losing my perspective.
Last night was D17's orchestra performance at the high school (she's 3rd chair 2nd violin) which was really nice and I chatted with some other parents afterward. I do have the ability to socialize, but as usual, H wasn't there to see it because he said he wasn't feeling well. He has attended maybe 25% of the kids' performances. (Both kids are musicians). The kids are actually more surprised if he is there.
I want to attend more of those kind of things this year as a GAL activity. S18 attends a conservatory about 15 minutes from my office, so they have performances frequently with guest musicians and student recitals, plus the school is smack dab in the middle of the area's museums.
I don't need H to have a full life- I already do a lot without him. And I'm certainly not afraid to go somewhere by myself- last winter I drove all the way to Cincinnati by myself for a show choir weekend for S18, and had a good time- chatted with other parents when I wanted and enjoyed peaceful Bunny quiet time when I wanted.
I don't need H and his issues. Wow, I feel stronger when I say that!
