Not in my nature

[pitinmygut]

I tried to call, but it just goes to an automated voicemail system, which isn't a typical "personal" vm, more like some sort of a business.

One of the things that is the most disheartening for me with my sitch, is the fact that we went forward with starting a family, even though she claims that she has considered leaving for years.

A bit of history. The reason for starting a family so late (not that I am that old) is because we had tried several years prior, but had no luck and then I had a cancer diagnosis back in 2006 (bone tumor). I was on crutches for over a year, so we decided to put off starting a family during that time. After that time, I was a bit hesitant to start a family because of my age, but she wanted to, so we decided to start trying again with no luck. We finally went through IVF to have a child.

We were both SO excited to finally have our little family in place and I had my son! It just kills me that within a year of the most exciting time in our lives and all the crap that we went through prior to that, she decided to walk out on me and take my son with her. It just makes my head spin.