I'm going to use this opportunity to start over w/her and see where things develop b/c I'm going to focus on moving at a natural pace.
She had all the attraction in the world for me until lately when I became too available, too clingy, and started moving too fast. I see that as my weakness and as where I'm a bit "broken" because I want things to happen so fast.
She may not be the one for me in the end, but I'm going to be her friend for now, do the things I should be doing to show confidence in myself, slow everything down and if the attraction is there, it will resurface. If not, I'll be able to work on my control and confidence in the meantime.
In the future, if things should go forward, I'll be able to be in a better place. Starting over and going slow will allow me to work through my issues as I begin counseling as well. In the end, it may be me that ends up not wanting to be w/her.
As I said before, I'm not ready to throw this one out...I may be NUTS, but I'm not there yet. So, this is good for me to see right now and I'm ok w/the idea.
It also forces me to get off my duff and get back out dating, which I'll start to do right away.
