checking in and journaling a bit i guess. Thx LFA. <3
I had a decent session with my C. Mostly I just ranted, once in a while she got a word in, but mostly I just ranted.
I feel a little better physically. I did get out yesterday for about an hour before I was just wiped. Mostly I have been having a hard time focusing. Not sure if its fatigue or what. i called my dr about it and have an appt in the morning.
Been trying VERY hard not to think about my h too much. Nobody hears from him anymore and he hasnt looked at my music, altho I havent been working on it either. Just havent had the desire or the strength. This morning I was having my quiet cup of tea and the strangest thought occured to me.....I was thinking about how much I loved him and then suddenly...I couldnt remember why. He has done nothing in months to give me any reason to. Oddly enough, I still love him. Made me pause anyway. I started reading the news to get my mind off of it.
I need a nap badly so Im going to lay down and watch a movie until i fall asleep.
