Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Good few days of GALing. I had the busy weekend and then last night took D10 to the Miley Cyrus concert in Chicago. It was her first concert ever and she had a blast.

I taught her how, even if the singer says goodnight, you don't leave the concert until the lights come on because the singer wants you to cheer for an encore.

I predicted the encore would end with "The Climb" and I was right. She rolled her eyes.

Still, a great night. She's been sick for five days so I was very worried she'd miss it. Really, is there anything better than making a lasting memory.

On the home front, not much to report. W has been sick all week and has been staying home with both girls. Yesterday, she called to see if I could take D10 to doctor. Initially, I said no, I had to listen in on a earnings phone call. Then she said, she'd bundle up D7 to go with and drive herself.

Well, I didn't want D7 to suffer so I said I'd listen in on the call recording later. Maybe she was playing me, but it wasn't that big of a deal. It's all about style. If she'd said "can you please take her, I really don't feel well?" I would have said yes. Instead she uses D7 to guilt me. She got what she wanted but in an unproductive way.

Doctor said D10 could develop pneumonia and prescribed an antibiotic. I dropped off the prescription and D10 and went to work.

This morning, after dropping D10 off, doctor said she could do the concert but should take school off, she took her medicine again. This time it's causing tremendous stomach pains. W calls me with this panicked/angry tone in her voice. She's upset with the doctor for prescribing the medicine and is going to call her and demand a different medication.

I can tell another bridge is about to be burned. D10's teacher last year stopped talking to W because of her continued accusatory/angry emails. She's already laid into D10's teacher this year. She had a number of angry exchanges with the principal and told me I would have to deal with any issues with him.

Last year, before she'd send the emails, she'd ask me to read them. I'd ask her to tone it down. She'd get mad at me for not supporting her.

W has so many anger/depression issues to deal with it's not going to be pretty. According to D10 though, they haven't come out too much. Mostly, they are getting along well. It comes out in her dealings with me. Once the D process starts it'll probably get worse.

On the trip to Chicago, D10 and I talked a bit. She said she didn't like telling me things that she and D7 do with W because it makes me sad.

I'd heard from my cousin last week that D10 told her I'm always sad and W is always happy.

I told D10 that I've been trying very hard to be sensitive of their feelings and not act super happy around them because I know they'd like to see us get back together. I told her that overall I'm happy and I'll get through this and they shouldn't worry about me. It's my job to help them grow up and find happiness.