Is this the end of my marriage?

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a) Never lay out a boundary you're not going to 100% enforce. Otherwise, it's not a boundary at all, but what I call a "geeIwishyouwouldn't."

You're right. I suppose with the first boundary laid down and working you get strength from that and can set bigger boundaries. Baby steps ...

b) Don't confuse "letting go" with "giving up." They are NOT the same, and in fact sometimes you HAVE to let go in order to save the relationship.

You also have to sometimes let go purely for your own sanity (which is my case).

I am NOT giving up and will NOT do until the D is signed (or she goes back to her home town 300 miles away like I asked her to). I have strength this week I haven't had before and I hope I can keep it up. My mind is slowly letting go of her and her A. As you said though, that doesn't mean I've given up on the her or the M.