Am I at this stage?

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One of H's biggest problems he states in our marriage is that when we were out in public together, he felt like he always had to be by my side and couldn't go on and have a good time. And that he was always afraid to talk to other women in fear I would get mad. I am a jealous person always have been, but that has diminished immensely since we got married and had children! So this banquet kind of seems like a good opportunity to go have a good time, which I always have every year and show him that he can have a good time too, and not feel obliged to be at my beck and call all night. And I can show him that I can have a good time without him. So that's why I'm considering going. Halloween is definitely a good time to detach. I HAVE to go trick or treating, we will be taking our three year old for the first time. I would never miss out on that in a million years. But I am just considering after we're done which will be around 8 or 9 to take off and leave the boys with him and go to this party. I know it would be good to have my own plans and go do them. I guess its just the fear in me again. I'm scared to turn away the opportunity of spending the night with him....its unfortunate.