My counselor and I just had this discussion yesterday. About how H's new R with OW is just that, a distraction for him from any sort of reality, real intimacy, real health and/or personal growth in his life. And while I may be feeling like I'm getting the short end of the stick at the moment by having to experience the deep pain of loneliness and abandonment brought on by his actions, it is also getting better and easier to deal and cope with it all each and every day because I am actually "feeling" it all and walking through my pain instead of trying to distract or numb it all out in a fantasy world. And eventually, when the time is right, should this be the ending and final conclusion to our story, there will be another individual who will treat me with the respect, dignity, honor, and loyalty that I deserve. I am growing in my self-esteem every day and know how high my value and worth is now.
Thank you again for your candid post. It will be one that I am saving to re-read when I need some reminders and reflection.
Me-34 XH-33 No Kids We were M-12Y T-15Y 5/09 Same house-separate bedrooms 01/10 I filed for D / H moved out 09/16/10 Divorced
