Donna--finding herself #37

[kat727]

I don't know that i will be a lot of help since ex just dropped the "I am engaged" bomb on my head Sunday. I don't remember if I even told him to get out but I do know that I pushed him out and closed the door on him. That hurt. The shock is starting to fade.

Before that bomb, I felt pretty good. Didn't give him much thought except when he messed with the kids in some way. I had even took the high road and suggest to him that he have the girls for about an hour so that they could Trick or Treat at his parents since this may be their last year.

I thought about how I wanted my life, the things I wanted to do with my kids. Ex wasn't anywhere in that picture.( This was about a year ago). It felt really good to realize that. His actions still caused me grief, such as when he filed bankruptcy and left me no choice but to follow. He can still push buttons but I try very hard to see it is just him trying to manipulate me.

I haven't risen above it yet but I am working my way up there.

kat