I've been absent from these past few posts b/c I've been lost as of late. I need to recover myself from all of this and find a way to get back moving in the right direction.
I'll try to switch the subject around and hopefully start a new trend.
Ok, work is ok as I'm getting into a rhythm with the subjects I'm teaching. It is getting easier to be more creative, which is a good thing for me as well as for my students.
As for my D6, she's doing well, except for her recent bout w/the Swine Flu. That knocked her out and produced an exchange w/XW about how irresponsible I am as a father, etc.
Speaking of the XW, I did take a step for myself and wrote out all the things that I was upset about and had been hurt by during the process of our D and I decided to send it on to her. I've been dwelling on stuff for so long and I'd been hoping to engage XW in a dialogue about it for MY sake, but she obviously wasn't in agreement of talking about anything ever. She solidified that fact by telling me as much (although in a not so kind way) in an e-mail last night.
So, after some thought last night, I decided today to write her and let her know all the things that hurt me in the process, about why I've learned I acted the way I did, about where I failed to keep up my part as her husband at times, and the other things I've learned on my never-ending journey of self-discovery. I'm pretty sure she'll never respond and she may not even read what I wrote, but in the end it doesn't matter. What is important is I've been able to get my feelings out and provided her w/an opportunity to see my side, if she chooses.
I was careful to make sure there wasn't anything in there that would get me in trouble if she took them to court, so I'm clear there...in case you were wondering.
D and I had a good weekend and I'm going to try and get her on board as our water girl as I look to get back into coaching this year. I'm going to join on the girls' side b/c of my D and she's pretty excited that I'm doing it, so that is making my return that much easier.
Ok, I think that should provide some insight into me for now. I'll look to add some later.
