My sin has not been forgiven. Not by my wife or by me.
I would never make the same mistake again, but that's moot now.
I feel guilt and shame. I may continue to make more mistakes, but that seems to be what I do. At least, future ones may be out of best interests.
I know this is hard. You can't give away won't you don't have. If you don't love yourself you don't have any love to give away to someone else.
You need to learn to forgive. It's loving, real and part of being a human. You need to talk to a IC or priest/preacher to heal. You are not the only person who has ever been thru a experience like yours, there is a better future if you do the work.
Cheers Coach
I am trying to see a counselor tomorrow and attempting to join a support group. It's mandatory.
